I suppose that everybody deserves an explanation
For my fakeness and the way I move around the nation
Well, that's whole lot easier said then done
Lucky for y'all I had a son so now I'll never have to run
But I, guess I gotta do it sometime
It's time to face the music so I hope you liked the one rhyme
You know the one I'm talking bout? Where I compare the words I write to fire...
The one where I admit that I'm a liar (and cynic too)
A unique ability to see the world through different views
Has made me a bit indifferent to the wisdom that you listen to
But I'd be one to talk, giving all the complications
I've created by evading all the love that I was raised in
Can't blame my mom more, at night we tend to hash it out
I might pretend I'm actually proud
Of the life I haven't rapped about
I'm so ashamed that I never said goodbye to Haley
I took advantage of Missy she has every right to hate me
This is not one of those.."if I say it all then they'll forgive me" songs
This is me rewritting history wrong
I'll try to say it clearer...
This is 20/20 vision glimpsing in the mirror
This is me begging you to let me know that you want me nearer
This is insignificant, this is not must
This is not a person you should trust
This is insignificant this is not a must
I am not a person you should trust



The second verse is just a remake of the first
A little darker this time because I'm gifted with a curse
I never thought that I would ever get so lost in my entire life
Probably restitution for every time I've tried to fight
My guiding light and compass don't even help with mazes now
Maybe I left my soul somewhere in that crazy town
I still think about Sydney from time to time
I think I'll call her someday when I'm refined, man I'm trying
But, back to clothing all the skeletons in my walk-in
Just let me speak my peace and it'll be your turn to talk then
Kurt Vonnegut vomiting on a beat he made
Telling everyone that he loves again that he just needs a break
My cup runeth over, I got carried away
These stockbrickers investing in everything I say
But... If I was you I probably wouldn't love me either
If you need me I'll be right behind your speakers
Hold it down for me


If you really love me I think you should tell me now
Cause I'll never know you love me if you say it to the ground
I'm so proud of you...
I'm so proud of you...


Dear Emil…